Monthly Archives: June 2005

Attending an Anti-drug Rally

Tonight I attended a big rally put on by the city to inform people about the dangers of crystal meth.  I knew the basics about this highly addictive drug so I didn’t go so much for information as to show support for any action to try and deal with this huge problem. And support of all efforts to break the trap of addiction in our city.  I did learn a couple of interesting facts from a dental point of view.  I didn’t know that rampant dental decay was such a problem peculiar to this addiction. 

So now when you come in with lots of cavities you know what I am going to think. πŸ™‚

Actually I do recognize this as a problem now in retrospect, for a few of my patients.  Not just a few cavities – rather the tooth pretty much disintegrating over a relatively short time.  I wonder if it is the drug or the neglect of hygiene?

The other striking part of the event, and perhaps it was because the first nations organizations helped put on the consultations over the past few days, was the prayer to start off the evening.  The elder was very traditional in his beliefs.  There was no syncretism with Christianity in his prayer as he called on the “grandfathers” for help with this problem.  It was pretty pure aboriginal spirituality.

It made me wonder – have we as Christians lost our credibility as caring people when it comes to caring for and about the drug addicted?  We seemed to have no identity here tonight.  And yet many people I know working in the area of addictions are followers of Christ – really.  Weird, since the God we know and worship; the God that has power to bring about change at the very foundations of a person’s life as no ancestor can, was not invoked.  I suspect political correctness had much to do with this, but it seemed to me a sad revelation – of how Christ is an offense to many.  And maybe of how we “Christians” have caused part of this offence by no wanting to sully our reputation by hanging around addicts.

So, now what?  A youth detox centre is desperately needed and I suspect will eventually be created. 

For myself?  Well, the whole huge problem of addictions in Prince Albert has been sitting heavily on my mind the last few months.  I don’t know what my role in this whole big problem is or should be.  Maybe I am called to just show love to some of the high needs kids I see in the school dental program.  Maybe there is more.  I’ve been trying to listen to God on this but have no real clue so far.  Prayer is not a futile act either and maybe that is all I can do for now.

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River Rising

We live on the banks of the North Saskatchewan River.  Two days ago we thought it was high.

In front of our home is a park that stretches along the river for blocks and so from the window as I write this, I can watch the river go by.  I have never seen it so high.  Now the island in front of me is completely under water except for the tops of the willows.  That hasn’t happened in the ten years we have lived here. 

Yesterday we were out watching the water and all the garbage that it has picked up and is carrying by.  Huge tree stumps.    Makes one wonder where it will end up.  I guess up in Tobin Lake; our artificial lake this side of the dam up by Nipawin.

There are also a family group of pelicans that nest on the island.  I wonder if their chicks made it.  I think the geese would have already hatched but I’m not sure about the pelicans.  We were watching those big white birds yesterday for awhile.

Leo has been extra busy these days.  Cumberland house has been evacuated.  It lies in the delta of the Saskatchewan River and on Cumberland Lake.  Apparently they anticipate that it will take weeks before the river recedes since the lake is expected to back up into the town as well as the river overflowing.  The river has already overflowed cutting the town off by road.  Anyway, Public Health is involved with the evacuation, so Leo usually makes his rounds by SIAST where all these people are billeted.  Rows of cots in the gym.  Must be a hard place to get some sleep!

Pictures will be posted soon of our lovely river.


There – finally found time to post some pictures.  The river still seems to be rising slowly but nothing like the last 24 hours.  I will also post a bunch of pictures at my Flikr site.

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You've got to read this

It is profound.  It is worth the few minutes it takes to read it through.  Link

Thanks to Maggi Dawn.

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A busy day

Well, we did not just sit around and do nothing.  Not really.  Most of the day I played with my grandson and visited with the neighbors who were having a garage sale.  Kierna was very interested in their toys and we bought a few cars.  He also brought his big tricycle along and had fun riding it down the slope of the neighbors driveway with their three kids.  And we got a bunch of wonderful baby stuff from socks to a big saucer thing like a walker without the wheels – not sure what it is called but it looks fun.

It was a nice day to be outdoors.  And on the riverbank we could also watch the North Saskatchewan River rising.  The banks are too high on our side for any danger of flooding.  Tonight it was a good foot or two higher than this –

 

The other big event of this weekend is grad.  We don’t have anyone graduating this year but Sara is the escort for her boyfriend Cody.  They came over to the riverbank for photos this afternoon.  A cute couple and good friends. 

 

 

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If this is love … Couldn't I have gotten an easier assignment?

Why does God seem to throw these big challenges up in my face?  Sometimes I wish he would put choices before me that are more palatable.  But I know enough to know that some things are commands.  Like “love one another.”  “Do good to those that hate you.”   Jesus didn’t just mouth these words.  And I can’t and claim to follow him either.

So, has he done this – putting the mother of my daughter’s boyfriend in my care as a patient?  I know that I can carry on providing good treatment.  I don’t let whether I like my patients detrrmine how well I do their work.  And we did not have to carry on a conversation since she hardly speaks any English.  Thank God for that.  At least that is how I felt.  I was hoping she would not ask me anything about Grace – and she did not.  I don’t know what I would have said.  But she did say “thank-you” in a very warm and friendly way as she left.

Maybe I should claim a conflict of interest and ask my partner to care for her.  But she is a Muslim woman and he is a man.  I suspect this is the main reason I was chosen to provide care.  So passing off her care would not be kind or respectful and she has done me no harm really – not her.

It is very difficult to respond in love.  I know Jesus would not have shunned this woman.  So I know what I am expected to do.  But the feelings sure are not there.  I don’t know what I feel.  This woman who has come to Canada from the Sudan; to a land where the language and customs are foreign, where people must look at her strangely, covered from feet to head as she is.  I pity her more than I care about her.  I don’t want to learn to love her really.  But there she is in my face – or rather I am in hers, and will be for several more visits. 

What will become of us – bound together by a common grandchild and a strange doctor/patient relationship?  God – help!  I really don’t want to even think about it.  I did not choose this struggle and right now I don’t want to face it.  But… 

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Now it's too hot

It really is too hot to sit here in this hot office and write.  Our overhead fan was killed by water running into it’s motor from a leak somewhere in our roof – we have been unsuccessful in finding it.  We did install windows that open finally but there is no breeze. 

So we have quit complaining about the incessant rain.  Now we can complain about the unbearable heat!  For today anyway.  I guess if the bedroom were airconditioned I would be happier, oh yeah, and the office. 

The day was actually beautiful.  The second day of summer.  Sky was clear and blue.  Now there are some big old thunderheads in the distance with flashing lightning. 


I just got a call to pick up my Sara.  She is an escort for grad this weekend at St Mary’s.  Her boyfriend is graduating.  She is having fun – doing the whole bit; nails, (fingers tonight done by her sister-in-law), hair and even a pedicure sometime before Saturday.  She likes this kind of stuff.  Drives me crazy just the thought of having long nails!

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What a Party!

One step better than blogfriends in cyberspace are blogfriends that become real live face to face friends.  Becky is one of those real live face to face friends that I would never have met if it weren’t for blogging and meet ups and places like the Worship Freehouse.

So it was a real treat to be invited to Becky and Jerry’s party – a Wedding reception so those of us that were not at the event four months ago could celebrate with them.   Just looking at them you can see they are in love!

Pictures are posted here.

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Summing up the retreat

In the fourth and final session of lectio and contemplative prayer we read from Psalm 42.

As a deer longs for flowing streams
       so my soul longs for you, O God.
My soul thirsts for God,
       for the living God.
When shall I come and behold the face of God?

Honestly, this is one of my favorite Psalms.  In the psalmist’s words, I hear the longing that comes from the heart of his being. He wants to see God, to be close, and it is like that need for a drink that drives a thirsty animal to seek water.

As we read the passage the phrase “behold the face of God” stuck in my thoughts.

The weekend had been a journey of sorts for me; from Jesus telling me I needed to rest and drink from his life-giving sap as a living branch, through God bringing me to a place of physical and spiritual release as he showed me what coming home to him was like, to this last session where he reminds me that I will behold his face if I follow my thirst till I find the living water he promises. 

This thirst to “behold the face of God” comes to the psalmist in a time when his own troubles cause him to repeat the question that people around him are asking: “Where is your God?”  I think that the troubles in my own life are also part of the tools God is using to remind me to search again for his face.  Dryness causes me to seek water to slake my thirst.  And that is just what Jesus wants to do for me.

This was my first experience attending a guided retreat.  I have gone off by myself before.  That was good but there was something special about this weekend.  Maybe it had something to do with the total lack of responsibility, even down to not having to decide what to meditate on or read. That may have given me more freedom to be led or perhaps to concentrate on hearing God.  Whatever it was, I plan to make this type of retreat part of my experience at least once a year.

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More from the retreat

The second session of lectio divina was from Mark 8: 22-26.  In this passage, the villagers “begged” Jesus to touch and heal their friend. 

It seemed to me that this fellow had good friends.  Perhaps they saw his potential, had grown up with him and had learned to love and care for him.  They knew and understood his need to be whole.  When Jesus came to their town, they knew that Jesus could heal their friend if he chose to do it.  They were not above begging – this blind guy was their friend. 

To me this passage spoke about the importance of friends in being introduced to Jesus – loving another person enough to bring them along to Jesus and beg Jesus for help on their behalf.

The other thing that struck me in this passage was that the return of this guy’s vision took some unusual action.  First of all, putting spit in a man’s eyes seems strange.  I wonder if he heard Jesus spit onto his hands and wonder what was going to happen.  There are a lot of things that may have been going on in this scene that we aren’t informed of.  And the man’s sight wasn’t restored perfectly right off the bat.  He had to look intently before his sight became clear.  I wonder if this is a bit of an allegory of how our faith develops – at first a bit fuzzy; becoming clearer as we look intently and see Jesus more and more clearly. 

By the time I was in the third session of the retreat, I was beginning to fall apart emotionally.  This was so unlike me.  I don’t go around weeping even for most sad stuff.  We came together to share from the second and third session of lectio and I could not. 

For the third session our passage was from John 15:4, from The Message this time.  “Make your home in me just as I do in you.”

It was as if I could not hear God.  I felt confused and lost and my emotions just seemed to take over.  I felt like I didn’t know what it meant to be at home; to make my home in God.  I think I felt lonely and lost.

Later on that evening, I went back to the room where the labyrinth was set up.

Walking the labyrinth was a new experience for me.  The first couple of times when I walked it, it was ok but nothing exceptional.  I’m not sure what I was expecting.  Both times before this evening, I had walked to the centre and it seemed as if God had met me there most as I sat and prayed at the centre – just that as I prayed, the issue I was praying about seemed to sort of resolve as I sat there and I left with a lot more lightness. 

This evening, I was dealing with a lot of turmoil inside.  I didn’t even really know what it was all about but I knew I wanted to be close to God, so I went to spend some time with him. 

As I walked, I asked him, “What does this mean for me – to be at home in you as you are in me?”  It dawned on me that I had not grown up in one single home all my life.  So a physical home for me did not mean a single place that I never moved from.  As I walked toward the centre, I didn’t seem to get any closer to understanding.  At the centre, I lay down and listened for a long time.  I was crying a bit, I felt so lost not knowing why all these emotions, feeling a bit like I was a long way from home but searching for it, unable to hear exactly what God was trying to say to me. 

Then as I lay there, Jesus reminded me of Leo.  He reminded me of how we are at home in each other.  How we are most “at home” when we are with each other – just around each other, not necessarily doing anything or even talking to each other.  It came to my mind that this is the kind of  “at home” he wants me to experience with him.  He wants me to be so comfortable in his presence that without even saying anything I will know that he is there and will be truly at home.  He reminded me that I need to stay closely connected to him or I will feel lost and away from home. 

I think that part of what I was feeling was also fear.  The pressure on me emotionally over the past couple of months has been heavy both at work and at home.  I needed some emotional healing and rest and I think Jesus was providing for me just the kind of rest I needed, even to letting some of my emotional hurts work themselves out.

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Lectio Divina – from John 15:1-5

A lot of what I learned this weekend had to do with resting in God.  The past few months have been full of stress at home and at work.  I was in need of rest.  The retreat gave me time to rest physically, mentally and spiritually, if that is the right term for the kind of spiritual refreshing I received.  Solitude and quiet regenerate me.

We had four sessions in which we practiced Lectio Divina.  Our first was this passage from John 15 verses 1 to 5.  These are the words God spoke to me.

“…You have already been cleansed by the word that I have spoken to you.  Abide in me as I abide in you…”

You have already been cleansed,
He says.
Rest,
He says.
I have spoken my word
To you.

Rest,
He says,
Does not mean that you let go;
As a branch
Falling from the vine.

Rest,
He says,
Means you drink deeply of my sap:
My life must flow
In and through your branch.

Rest
And be my branch.
Draw life from me.
Bear fruit.

 

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