Monthly Archives: June 2006

One less deer in the world!

I just got one of those phone calls; “Mom, I had an accident.”  Patrick was on his way to Saskatoon, driving David’s big new truck.  He hit a deer.  Smuked it directly on the grill.  Has done enough damage that the truck cannot be driven.  He however was not hurt at all.  Thank God.  And the dogs are also fine – they are Michelle’s babies and it would be serious if they got hurt.  Ebony is likely traumatized – poor thing.

David’s vehicles have the worst luck. 

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Three weeks and counting

Here we are at the last week we do sedation till the end of the summer.  I am done work as of today for the long weekend.  Holidays start for my partner at the end of this week.  Our summer student arrives and starts on Monday.  Summertime.  I can hardly believe it will be only three weeks till my vacation begins.

 

And now I have received the list of books to read for the Spiritual Direction course I am taking this summer.  I need to find some time to read.  I have read the main text already and one of the additional reading books but with my mind that acts as a sieve sometimes, I think I’d better re-read them.

 

As well, there was mentioned that we need to bring some kind of 300 word personal life story narrative to be shared. 

 

So the next three weeks are going to be very busy ones.  And our visitors from England arrive today, I believe.  We do want them to see everything.  And try some of our local delicacies – like bison and deer and … oh, yeah Tim Horton’s   And share with them the vast array of local “ancient” history dating back to the early 1900’s.  It would be fun to visit some of the real ancient sites like the petroglyphs but they are a long way away.  They may have to settle for the more recent wall paintings by the local natives – ie: graffiti. 

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Till Some Time Suspended

There are times when my poetic mind

Is flat broke for inspiration.

Life presses in too tightly

And there is hardly room to think,

Let alone create with rhyme and rhythm.

 

The guys come home hungry from work

How can their mother refuse to cook them food?

They look right fagged out from

Building small bits of paradise. 

In someone else’s yard.

 

And the girls need things from the store

Mostly they need my money

I think.  Or my car to get there.

Girl stuff.  They don’t want to be seen

By the boy – a classmate at the counter.

 

And I let them use me, knowing that

Too soon they will be gone.  My house

Will echo with empty walls

I will prepare food for a full table

And no one will come to eat the leftovers.

 

So for now, I will rest my mind.

I will gather memories,

Set them in store rooms till some time,

Winter descended, time suspended,

I will work on them;

Knit them to a cozy blanket

To cover myself in the wonder my life has been.

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Grad Photos

I promised some pictures of Grace’s big day.  I am going to post some here and some over at Flikr

Ain’t she beautiful!

And Zaka was pretty good looking in his little suit.

At the grad mass.

Grace and her escort for the evening.

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Grad day

We have about made it through the day.  Diploma is in hand, gown has been worn – and she was beautiful.  I will post some pictures but this day has just been so full that I have had no time. 

The ceremonies were very long this morning and hot.  It was good to see a lot of the girls I have come to know a bit from Sara’s soccer team take home many of the awards.  Kirsten, the Governor General’s Medal and Scholarship.  Leo works with her mom and so we sat next to her and Kirsten’s aunt this morning and they were pretty proud.  Rightly so. 

Next on the agenda was getting the hair done.  Grace had missed her appt time so big sister came to the rescue.  I think it looked wonderful and cost only what the bobby pins and sparkles cost at the dollar store.

Then over to Ecole Valois where all the kids who attended there and their families had supper together.  Lots of good pictures of good friends in their finery.  Shared lots of old elementary school memories.

Then the Grand March.  Another session in the hot gym watching the beauty of young men and women parading by dressed in gowns and tuxes that each cost enough to feed an African village for a month!  All to wear for a couple of hours.  It was good to celebrate with them even if it is rather extravagant.

Now Leo and I are home with Zakariya.  He did pretty well making through the day, looking spiffy in his little tux himself.  He is a handful.  Lugging him around is work!  We are babysitting while Grace celebrates with her classmates tonight.  I am glad he is sleeping now and hope the night is quiet.

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Friends

Today is going to be a big day – grad and all that entails; ceremonies, special meals, friends, gowns, pictures, and parties. 

Friends – they can last for a lifetime, those friends formed during the growing up years.  I think I envy my children their enduring friendships – something I was not good at establishing in those growing up years.  I protected myself too often from relationships I knew would be broken by moving away, from the inevitable changes of life.  It took me a long time to realize how I had guarded myself by holding huge parts of me back from my friends.  I am glad I finally learned to trust some of the people around me so that now I can say I have good friends, friends I can lean on in tough times.

Yesterday, Eric got news that the second of the guys our church is sponsoring as refugees will be on his way soon.  Yaunde will arrive Sept 5 or 6.  He, Massa and Yaunde(sp?) were the best of friends and that friendship has endured the test of separation and the waiting through the whole refugee process.  Now they will be reunited.  Hope come to fruition.  Eric is pretty elated.

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Posting pictures

I seem to be doing most of my posting to this space from my laptop.  That makes sense I guess.  The home computer is, however, where we have stored almost all of our photos and where we have programs installed to work with the photos.  It takes me awhile but I am gradually getting the programs I need to handle our digital images set up on the laptop.  These things take me time – more than it would for a real computer geek.  But I can do it(most of the time) with no outside help.  I can figure it out.

So, today, I have posted a couple of pictures from my retreat on my entry from Sunday.  Well, one so far – I will put the other up when I have gotten my next patient looked after.

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Gearing up for the big day

This week is all about finals – till Thursday. 

Then we will switch into grad mode – party time!  It is a good time to celebrate the achievements Grace has made over the years.  Academics may not be her strong suit but she is going to make it. and if she can handle four subjects with a new born babe and do it with the strength she has shown, I think she can reach some of the goals she had in mind before Zaka came along. 

We seem to have had grads and weddings every summer for the past few years.  I think I have enough dresses and seem to wear them so rarely that they are still like new.  Unlike Lauralea, there are no new gowns in the plans for me.  And I am glad.  These big events eat up the cash in all the little and big things that are “needed.”

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Listening to God

When I go away, out of my ordinary routine, to a quiet place, with the main purpose being to listen to God, I often am afraid.  Not afraid of hearing God speak but of trying so hard, of wanting to hear him speak in certain ways, that I miss out on what he wants to speak into my life at that moment in time. 

 

The usual quiet places in my house have been invaded this summer.  The World Cup begins early in the mornings and as soon as the guys are up, the TV goes on.  That is my usual corner to meditate in the early morning.  I have found another corner, to be sure, but it still feels as if my still quiet place is disrupted.  Often there are sleeping bodies in various places – couch or floor this summer, too and extra moving around on my part is likely to disturb someone’s sleep. 

 

Don’t get me wrong – I love having the house invaded by the kids.  It is their home and I am glad they come back to it.  But for solitude???  Not a good thing.

 

So, I have been planning for awhile to get away to some very quiet place and take some time to listen to God more closely.  I seem to need these times.  The solitude nurtures my ability to listen.  There have been some hard things to work through this spring and I needed to hear God again. Friday evening I headed up to the Franciscan Forest Sanctuary close to Christopher Lake. 

 

On Saturday morning, I woke refreshed.  Breakfast was ready and I sat down alone at the table, looking out the large windows at the forest and the two hummingbirds flitting around between the Saskatoon bush and the feeder.  The male with his bright red throat would pause for awhile sitting on the bush or the top of the rail of the deck.  I thought how they just are.  They are beautiful and they were created for what?  They are not expected to do anything that I can determine, just fly, nest, raise their young – just be; just fit into their place in the whole scheme of life that God created.  In being what they were created to be, they provide something beautiful for us to enjoy.

 

The picture behind the table said “Just to be is a blessing, to live is holy.”  I am not sure who the quote is from but the meaning seemed very true in the incredible silence of the morning.   Just living in that moment was holy.

 

As I sat just reflecting on these things, I found my eyes filling with tears.   As the trees surrounded and seemed to embrace the sanctuary with the forest, I felt as if I was being held like a small child by her mother, just being still in the care of someone who loves me very much.  The feelings and the experience are a bit difficult to describe. The sense of being mothered was overwhelming and good.

 

It caused me to reflect on the longings in me to be a mother – to be mothering the children I have; to embrace them as they are and give them a place where they are always welcome, safe and loved.   I think that desire also comes through in my desire to provide what I can to nurture faith in others so that they can find this safe place in God’s care.

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Father's Day

A day to honor fathers – I guess I am honoring the father of my children by letting him stay at home today and play golf in the afternoon.  My own dad – I will honor by trying to be a good parent for my kids.

I will be on my way shortly with Sara for Regina where she will be playing soccer.  Yesterday’s match was cancelled due to rain and poor field conditions in Saskatoon.  Last night when I got home from my retreat, I was surprised to find her here since she was expected to be in Saskatoon; I was to pick her up there and drive to Regina. 

My short retreat was good.  I will write more about that later.  The retreat center is up for sale.  There is only one sister there now and the congregation she is a part of is aging.  There are no new recruits to carry on this work.  That makes me sad as it is not likely gong to sell to a group that will use it as a spiritual retreat – perhaps it will be sold to a group wanting to have a native healing centre.  Oh for a few hundred thousand in extra cash!  I could live there quite happily. 

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