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Everything that I need?

Psalm 23:1

The Lord is my shepherd;

I have everything that I need.

 

We meditated on this Psalm at the beginning of our meeting tonight – a few people, the church council with work to be done.  

 

By halfway through the meeting, I think I had forgotten already.  The problem of getting volunteers – not just warm bodies but people with a vision for the tasks to be done – is daunting for me.  We need adults who will look after the real little kids.  We need adults who will teach and care about the little bit older kids.  All we need are a few each week –  its not like they have to commit themselves to help every Sunday – maybe once every couple of months.  

 

But here I am again, focusing on the problem.  

 

The only way we are going to resolve this issue is if the adults in question hear God calling them to do this sort of thing.  And since Jesus said to ask for anything – well I am asking.  Maybe this is not the way he wants to get this job done; so I’ll be listening for that kind of message too.  Maybe it requires a major shift in my thinking.  Or maybe I am just tired of trying to accomplish too big a job mostly in my own strength.  

 

So I think I will try to listen more.  We have simplified our children’s Sunday class time down almost as much as we can.  Maybe we need to just incorporate teaching for children into our main worship time.  Maybe our small group needs to be so child friendly that the kids are as much at home in the sanctuary as in a “class”. Pews don’t contribute much to a child friendly atmosphere though. 

 

Whatever.  Jesus certainly cared about the kids that hang out around him.  I wonder what he would do, or wants to do with our kids?  He has everything that we need.  The psalmist goes on to describe God’s bountiful provisions even through the roughest of places.  For me this is a rough place.  Provide, please God.

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The end of a busy day

Tonight I rode home from work.  The 5 minute bike ride is hardly a big physical effort but it is better than nothing.  I like the ride, especially the part on the river bank.  The geese, ducks and gulls are gathering.  a sure sign that the seasons are changing.  leaves are also starting to fall and today with a strong wind there were almost as many branches as leaves on the path. 

I had a roast in the oven cause I had no idea if I would be having 7, 8 or 10 for supper.  I had green beans that I picked up at the farmers market on Saturday and I wanted to cook them as well as some more of the corn on the cob.  We ended up having a pretty substantial meal.  The last of the stragglers came home and ate around 9. 

Massa wrote his drivers test today for the second time but was again unsuccessful.  I know he knows the signs well.  I suspect it is the way questions are asked that is hardest for him.  I guess we will have to work harder with him on this.  I imagine he is more disappointed than he lets on.

I had time to run up to the church to help set things in order for the funeral tomorrow.  Then back home to clean up from supper. 

And then Sara needed to discuss the assignment she has – to write down her philosophy of life. 

Right now my philosophy is to get off my aching foot and into bed.  Tomorrow will be another day. 

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Watching love work

We said goodbye to a friend last night.  We won’t see him in his home again and we will miss him, especially when we go out there to visit.  He loved his home by the lake with the garden all around, the hummingbirds hovering around the feeders, lots of birds and squirrels outside the window, the lake just the other side of the house.  So, he spent his last days there surrounded by all of the natural beauty he loved and by his family who cared for him.

 

On Friday evening Leo and I went out to see him.  He could no longer respond to us by then and we knew it would not be long.  His body was riddled with cancer but he never had given up easily, and I guess it was no different fighting disease than throwing his efforts behind any of the many endeavors he undertook in life.

 

When we were there on Friday, it was time for the homecare nurse to come and care for him as well as time to change and turn him.  I watched this act of love take place.  The bedsores were tended, lotion was massaged onto his drying skin, and he was changed into a fresh gown and was given fresh sheets.   His wife, daughter and sons were not careless.  It was obvious that they were handling a man that they loved – this care was itself an act of love.  Just bringing him home where they were obligated to provide this kind of care round the clock was an act of love and care.  They did well.

 

It made me hope that when it is time for me to go I can die a good death like his, in a place I love surrounded by family caring for me.  I don’t know that my state of consciousness will have much to do with it.  There is something about love that reaches through all that to envelope the dying person, I think.  Seeing that sort of love at work makes me contemplate my own time of passage with less trepidation.

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Departures and homecomings

The words of Henri Nouwen in todays meditation seem very appropriate for these days of pending loss of a dear friend from cancer, children moving away for work and school, children just trying out their limits. 

Every time we make the decision to love someone, we open ourselves to great suffering, because those we most love cause us not only great joy but also great pain. The greatest pain comes from leaving. When the child leaves home, when the husband or wife leaves for a long period of time or for good, when the beloved friend departs to another country or dies … the pain of the leaving can tear us apart.

Still, if we want to avoid the suffering of leaving, we will never experience the joy of loving. And love is stronger than fear, life stronger than death, hope stronger than despair. We have to trust that the risk of loving is always worth taking.

Love not only makes the homecomings painful, it makes the reunions sweet.

Leo came home late last night from Ontario.  That is good.

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A male multitasker?

Tonight driving home from dinner out, we passed a young man walking along the road.  We all looked at him and then looked a second time.  His ears were plugged into an MP3 player or discman and as he walked he was not looking at the road at all.  He was reading a book. 

I guess he could multi-task! 

I am pretty sure that I would not be able to concentrate on a book well enough to enjoy it and walk at the same time, and then to listen to music at the same time!

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I did it!

I have been toying with starting a new adventure.  In the Spring I attended a music event, actually a dance performance by a local group.  As part of the evening they also featured several musicians, obviously not higly experienced, but pretty good.  One of the musicians is a patient of mine so I commented on the performance the next time she was in to see me.  To my surprise, I found out that she had only begun to play the cello recently and was part of a group that got together to play strings for fun and to learn.  I was intriqued.  I love the low tones in music best and have sort of wanted to try something new so I asked about joining the group.  I am going to try learning the double bass.  Yeah.  Those great big things. 

 

On Tuesday I got in contact with the leader of the strings orchestra and rented a half size double bass.  I have been plucking away at it since then.  It will be a challenge but fun.  I think there will be two adults in the beginner group – but I really don’t care.  I just want to learn how to play this beautiful instrument. And as the saleswoman stated when I told her I really was a rank beginner, “One really nice thing about the double bass is that it does not screach when you play it.”

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Please – Just two more weeks off?

My vacation is about finished.  Tomorrow it is back to work. This morning I dragged myself out of bed at about 8:30.  That is very late for me and if I do that tomorrow, I will miss about two patients.  I was a patient myself again today and so I had a look at the schedule.  It looks absolutely crazy!  I may have to remind them that I will be back in the next day too so I don’t  have to see everyone the first day back!

The vacation has gone by way too fast.

I think I need another two weeks. 

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Wandering Around Saskatchewan

I returned from my vacation in Alberta and this morning I drove Leo down to Saskatoon to catch a flight to Toronto.  We did not actually get tired of each other but that is just how our life goes – lots of travel for Leo.  This time he is off to a conference on AIDS.  It fits in with a couple of his jobs – his MHO job and his seat on the Sask Advisory Committee on AIDS.  He says he will follow the epidemiology stream mostly.  He also said that he could be at the conference from about 7am till 9pm but that he thought he might make his days a tad shorter. 

Second week he goes to stay with some old friends – Muslims and very devout so I know for a fact that he will not be boozing it up.  He will be playing lots of golf.  the second week is vacation for him and our friends have been asking him to come and do this for so long.  Finally he gets a chance to visit.

Yesterday was a long day of driving.  I left my sister’s at about 9:30am and went to Pidgeon Lake to pick Sara up.  She was ready to go by about 2pm and we headed home via Wainright.  The roads were good so it only took us about 7 hours of driving – got home a bit after 9pm.  We drove through some heavy rain.  It cleaned the bugs right off the window. 

 And just about Blaine Lake there was a glorious rainbow that filled the sky.  It was a bit too dark to get good pictures – all that I took were a bit blurry and didn’t come close to doing the actual rainbow justice.

Today I decided to wander around the countryside on my way home from Saskatoon. 

I took the ferry across the South Saskatchewan at Hague and drove the back roads.  There were thousands of little white butterflies everywhere, including all over the grill and front window.  They are probably pests of some kind but they were pretty as they rose in clouds from the sides of the roads.

One of my stops along the way was to check out some old buildings.  Two little birds were perched on the windowsill.  They did not mind me taking their pictures.  They looked as if they may be very young and maybe sitting was still the safest thing for them to do!

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This isn't so much about books…

as it is about my weakness for collecting and reading them. 

Today I was determined to find a Canadian Tire store to make a necessary outdoors type purchase.  I found the store but goodness, you would think that we were already waiting for out first snowfall by the stuff they are putting on the shelves!  Where is the stuff for canoeing???  What is left of summer stuff is on the clearance racks.  I still have a week of summer vacation to go.  Something is very wrong here!

I failed to find what I needed but I found a good bookstore.

I am now a few books richer and several dollars poorer. 

I love browsing through a bookstore.  If I could only limit myself to browsing it would be cheaper. 

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Vacationing Along

This is wonderful.  It is 1 pm and I am sitting here after a leisurely morning.  Quiet time with God happens early for me but that doesn’t mean I have to get out of bed!  Not while I am on holidays and a guest in my sister’s home.  After all, I wouldn’t want to wake everyone else up early.  So after some reading and reflecting, I tucked myself back under the covers for a bit more sleep. 

Finally got up around 9.  Made some instant coffee – pretty bad substitute for a coffee addict but what can one do in an emergency situation in a house of mostly non-coffee addicts?  I needed my fix by that time of the morning and it did quite well.  Toasted a bagel around 10:30 and spent most of the morning chatting with my niece. She is fun to talk to. 

Chantelle has a tiny little dog – Ginger.  Ginger has been getting into all sorts of trouble lately so may actually be ill.  He goes to the vet this afternoon.  I hope he is not seriously ill since I think Chantelle would be heartbroken.  She actually bought this little zebra striped sweater for him.  I am not really into putting sweaters on dogs but this one is sort of cute and since I really like Chantelle – what else can I say?  A sweater on my dog, Maisy, would likely be chewed to shreds in about 2 minutes.  I had to buy a chain link type collar for Maisy.  She does not like wearing accessories!

Now it is almost lunch time.  I guess I will eat and then decide what strenuous activity I will do for the afternoon.  A bike ride would probably be a good idea.  I may just decide to sit and read.  I could also see myself finding a good bookstore to browse in, or maybe a store with some good sale going on.  This is my favorite kind of vacation.

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