LineaLanoie's Weblog

Someone made a comment about my studies on the weekend and I have been thinking about it all week. Well, I guess that is only 2 days but still it has made me think. I was expressing my relief to having completed two of my courses. His comment was something to the effect of “I don’t think I would study that, especially when you are doing it just for fun.” And then we talked about how, even though I am not studying in the MDiv program with the goal of becoming a full time lead pastor, I need to have a goal such as achieving a degree or I might not really study either. I doubt that I would put as much effort into the classes if I was simply auditing them – for fun.

But it started me rethinking my whole decision to do the MDiv. One thing I am confident of is that the direction I am taking is the result of God moving me in this direction. I do not know where it will lead exactly. I have some idea of areas in which I would like to utilize this pastoral training but nothing is really clear right now. Perhaps there will be some kind of outreach involving women – that is sort of in the back of my mind. And I continue to feel that my gifts will be put to use in some form of spiritual direction ministry.  It is just hard sometimes to remember the sense of direction and the affirmation of others who have encouraged me along this way. I need to keep the memory strong of the women who gathered around me to pray with me as I was discerning if this really was for me.

Just some of my thoughts these days. I guess maybe I should correct people who think that these studies are just for fun. But what do I say. that they are not fun?  It is all stuff I want to learn after all.

But I am really glad that those two classes are done. Three at one time and working full time – that was crazy!

It is done.  And I think ( and fingers are always crossed till the final mark is back) that I did reasonably well.  I have to do well enough to get a transferable credit.  I can’t think of anything much worse than having to repeat Intro to Greek II – although that would be one sure way to really learn it.

And I guess I shouldn’t let the brain go into hibernation just yet.  I have a paper to finish writing today – a comparison of the creation account in Genesis with the ancient Babylonian and Egyptian ones.  I have about 1/3 of it done.  And then on with my theme paper which has much work left to do.

By next Monday I will only be taking a single class.  I won’t know what to do with all my spare time!

I think my brain is just about full.    Too bad there wasn’t some kind of knowledge compactor to allow a person to cram in just a bit more.  I think it needs some sleep or something.  Maybe Saturday’s test will empty it out so I can put some new stuff in.

Tonight I have had a whole evening to study.  I am so tired besides being a bit sick and tired of studying that it was almost a total waste of time.  I ate popcorn, I drank tea and I wrote out some vocabulary words but my head is too tiredfor much more.

I think it would be best if I just go to bed.

I should work out on the exercise bike first but I am just too tired.  Hope Leo does not get a mid-night call again tonight.  Nothing worse for trying to sleep than having him talking on the phone in bed at about 1:30 am.